26/08/08 - Diary - 5 days after we broke up...
All the while I though I was very strong... But in fact I am only nothing but a Weakling and a Coward boy... I am weak I cannot accept what is happening and stand up once again after fall, I am Coward because I don't have the courage to accept the reality when you left me... I used all my hearts and souls to love you, try my best to take care of you, try my best not to hurt you as much as possible... Tried my best to give you all my love and happiness that I can afford too... I know, you never requested anything from me, you are afraid that you will trouble me... But now, loving long enough and those feelings we built up together is nothing but for a few hours of one short love...
I wear a mask in front of my friends, and this mask I wear fooled and bluffed all of them, pretending that I have once stand up again and walk on... Everyone though I was already cured and accepted what has happen... But every night, when the flashes of memories with you and me passes through my mind, as I think and think, my tears began to flow down my cheeks and I began to tell myself, bluffing myself, you and me are still together... You will love me forever, how could you just leave me and move on just like that...? More tears began to dash down my cheeks...
But no matter how, I have to accept the reality and move on, I really want to carefully kiss you a hundred times with all my heart and soul, if that is you allowed me... Dear, my tears are flowing down my cheeks, dropping on the floor and at last evaporate... Bit by bit those tears are a sign of a broken heart that burst into a million pieces...
8月26日08年 - 日记 - 分手后的第五天...
一直以来我都是脆弱的男人, 我用尽心力和灵魂的去爱护你... 给了你我所能给的幸福... 而你从来没有和我提过任何要求, 你害怕会给我添麻烦... 可现在, 我们两个所建立的爱情和感情都敌不过几小时短短的爱...
我欺骗了所有的朋友, 所有我所认识的人, 关心我的人, 扮坚强没事... 大家都以为我没事了, 已经能重新站起来面对... 每晚 ,我一想起你和我之间的无数回忆, 我想着想着就哭了, 我欺骗自己, 你和我还在一起, 你永远是爱我的, 你怎么可能忍心离开我呢...?
可是我必须面对现实, 我很想在你的脸上小心的留下几百个吻, 如果可以的话... 亲爱的, 我的泪一滴一滴的落在地上, 慢慢化开... 一滴一滴的落在了我碎掉的心上....
