In this story that I write, names of the person that I am describing will not be revealed, and the person I will be writing about will only be described as "He"... His story is all only but happy memories and his sad memories with the one he loved the most... A sad story about a boy... Each night he taste the purest of pain...
His a boy that carries a happy face where ever he goes, smiling all the way, staying very strong like other normal boys... But, in the other side... He is nothing but a sad boy being played by Love, acting happy and strong as each day passes... hiding all his sadness, pain, loneliness through his smiles... Facing the world by wearing a mask... Hiding deep inside his cold heart core, carrying a secret like me... Unable to tell other friends like normal secrets that buddies share along their friendship life, choosing who to tell, this secret only can be told to the boys that are same kind like him, and shall not be expose to others due to social, family, friends, religion pressure... Yes, as I write the word "same kind like me" is referring to homosexual... During his secondary level, when he was in form 4... He deeply fell in love with a boy that is younger than him by 1 year if I'm not mistaken... He truly loved him with pure heart, but... the boy that he loves is nothing only but a shadow... He cannot give what he seeks in him, because the boy He love is normal, straight... During school days, he treated that boy as if they were in a relationship... giving everything to the boy that he loves, fetching him after school, buying him the things that he likes... Fulfilling his lover's dreams... giving him almost everything he wants... Even though he knows that the boy he loves will not accept him, yet he continues to scarifies almost everything for the boy he loves the most, just to see him happy and laugh all day... Every time after school, if there's a chance to fetch his lover back, he would be very gladly and happy to fetch him back home from school and not needing any promises from his lover...
His a boy that understands situation... He understands what is love and he also understands that he will not be given a chance to be with the boy he loves because of fate... His love towards that boy is so pure, and deep like an ocean... He once told me that he only wishes to see the one he love happy and willing to do anything that will make him happy although they cannot be couples... For all the love he found in that boy... He was his strength when he was weak, his voice when he could not speak... Gave him wings and made him fly... When he lost his faith, he gave it back to him... Can't be apart of life... but his thankful for each day he gave him... Through all the lies he was the only one that is truth... A place in his heart that no other boys can take over... All he feels that he was blessed to get to know the boy he loved in his life...
On February 14Th... Valentines day, He was a boy that shattered into million of pieces... The one he loved was in a relationship, and he fetched his lover to go buy valentines gift for his girlfriend... He was so sad... and there's one time, he get to go to his lover's house and stayed overnight with the one he loved... at night, he heard his lover talking to his girlfriend... Heart broken, yet he didn't gave up on loving the boy he felled for, with no regrets until today...
He is also a boy that love is everything to him... His heart is like the north star...
The north star will be always in the north... It wont follow the season to move... Guiding the one he love, always shinning brightly in the north sky every night...
