As today, time's on my side...
It's slow...
So Slow...
Congratulations Chris, (to me)...
You survived and stayed single for the first month...
Heartbroken...
Never happy again...
But you manage to hide it so well...
You manage to keep everything to yourself...
You manage to make decisions by yourself...
Congratulations...
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In this 1 month time, I've been suffering a lot...
I've not revealed it to anyone...
I kept this away from everyone...
No people could understand what am I doing...
I kept my pain away...
I kept my sadness away...
I separated it from my heart and I sealed it in a wooden box...
But...
No matter how hard I try to take out the pain and hide it somewhere...
Deep down in my heart there's a wound...
It's bleeding...
It hurts...
I still feel the pain...
But my face is smiling all day long...
No one knew I was sad...
Not even my own family, my friends...
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Looks like I've mastered the "No Feelings Technique"...
Stumbled into a song when I was searching for new songs...
Final Fantasy X - 1000 words (piano version)...
I feel so relax listening to this song...
And...
It made me recall things of the past...
Incomplete memories of "you" and me...
There's still so many things haven't got the chance to tell "you" before we go...
So many things we both promised each other and not done yet...
It's just... Too many...
The song repeating again and again...
So goes as my mind, thinking about the past, again and again...
I just wish...
If I could get a next relationship...
Can I at least complete all my memories with the one I love?
Can I at least furfill all my promises with the one I love?
I feel so lost...
