Was up the whole night think about you and me... All those matter that replays again, all the mistake replays again and again, hurting you badly... We argued about a lot of problems that were unsolved and left aside (with an eye close). It feels weird, when you love someone but you still can hurt your lover... What we talk last night was all the truth that was kept ancient long enough to be uncovered, and it's only the matter of time to be uncovered... Yeah, it hurts when comes to talk about (Truth), I bet no one likes it that's why most of em choose to -EVADE...
For all the hurting, bleeding, rage last night was all reflect to what I've done... All because of me... I made it myself to suffer... Maybe I feel you don't deserve me, I know that sentences I wrote will hurt you... But it's the fact... At the rate I am doing all this towards you, you're suffering and won't be happy... I always admire on how people treat their lover so good, while I know nothing about love and wants to be in a relationship... - (selfish eh?)
I was tired... But my body and mind won't rest because of what happened... Well I guess you're sleeping already and by waking you up and talk about this won't help much because you're tired and I am tired and won't make things any better since it's been a day long for both of us... Before hanging up the phone, you asked me one easy simple question... "Will we be happy together as always...?" I remembered what I've answered you and hurt you... "I don't know already..." So I was left in the dark and to think about this matter...
3.30 a.m whoa, few hours more till sunrise... I've finally understood that the problem will not rest unless I change myself... I do admit changing is hard especially yourself...
CHRIS /PES
I still you love like always do... PES
Sorry...
