Hello again bloggie, I'm back again... Well feels kinda selfish whenever I am sad or emo I'll come and find you - (bloggie)... Well, feeling kinda sad now. Why!? For what reason...? Well to tell you the truth bloggie, I feel that I am a failure in life... A failure in my love life... A failure in the future... Well who cares about the future, I care more on my love life...
Why do I feel that I am a failure in my love life...? I feel like I am a suck ass Boyfriend... I can't entertain my lover, until he has to find his friends to SMS all the time to get rid of - Boring... I don't know, maybe it's because of what I've done towards him and now this is the price I am paying and to bare with it...
Feeling lonely all the time, it's been a while I've not have this feelings... Suddenly this feelings emerges once again since it was buried long ago inside my heart after I met him... Weird... This feeling... Makes me feel so empty... Is it the reason why I've not been able to hold my smiles on my face for time to time...? I don't know... I really don't... Each day, I can see his smile sinking to the bottom of his heart... I guess this is the reason... But I don't know the actual reason, since he doesn't want to be honest with me but to his friends more... His smile, my smile... are both sinking as each day passes by...
It's is fate...? Or is it man made...? Bloggie... I've been keeping a lot of things in my heart... I've no one to tell... No one to share... Pressure is building up as each day passes by... I am lost... I need help... Hear my plea... Both of us are crying all day long, it hurts... SO... Badly... I don't know how long I can hold on to this bloggie, my tears are turning red... I am dying inside...
