Warcraft III - Reign Of Chaos ( 1, 2, 3 ) (O)

ORCS : THE HORDE

Orcish History

( SINCE THE END OF THE SECOND WAR )

Gul'dan and the Betrayal

During the final days of the Second War, as the horde's victory over the Alliance seemed almost assured, a terrible feud erupted between the two most powerful orcs on Azeroth. The nefarious warlock, Gul'dan, master of the clandestine Shadow Council, led a number of renegade clans against the might of Orgrim Doomhammer, the warchief of the horde. As Doomhammer prepared his final assault against the Capital City of Lordaeron, an assault that would have crushed that would have crushed the last remnants of the Alliance, Gul'dan and his renegade clans abandoned their posts and set out to sea. The bewildered Doomhammer, having lost nearly half of his standing forces to Gul'dan's treachery, was forced to pull back and forsake his greatest chance of victory over the Alliance.

The power-hungry Gul'dan, obsessed with obtaining godhood itself, set out on a desperate search for the undersea Tomb of Sargeras that he believed held the secrets of the ultimate power. Having already doomed his fellow orcs to become the salves of the Burning Legion, Gul'dan throught nothing of his supposed duty to Doomhammer. Backed by the Stormreaver and Twilight's Hammer Clans, Gul'dan succeeded in raising the Tomb of Sargeras from the sea floor. However, when he opened the ancient, flooded vault, he found only crazed demons awaiting him.

Seeking to punish the wayward orcs for their costly betrayal, Doomhammer sent his forces to kill Gul'dan and bring the renegades back into the fold. For his recklessness, Gul'dan was torn apart by the maddened demons he had set loose. With their leader dead, the renegade clans quickly fell before Doomhammer's enraged legions. Though the rebellion had been quelled, the horde was unable to recoup the terrible losses it had suffered. Gul'dan's betrayal had afforded the Alliance not only hope, but also time to regroup... and retaliate...

Through Lord Lothar fell in battle at the Spire's base, his lieutenant, Turalyon, rallied the Alliance forces at the eleventh hour and pushed the horde back into the abysmal Swamp of Sorrows. Turalyon's forces succeeded in destroying the dark portal, the mystical gateway that connected the orcs to their dark, red homeworld of Draenor. Cut off from the horde finally buckled in upon itself and fell before the might of the Alliance forces.

The scattered orc clans were quickly rounded up and placed within guarded internment camps. Though it seemed that the horde had been defeated for good, some remained highly skeptical that peace would last. Khadgar, the former apprentice of Medivh, convinced the Alliance high command to build the fortress of Nethergarde that would watch over the ruins of the dark portal and ensure that there would be no further invasions from Draenor.

Ner'zhul and the Shadow Clans

As the fires of the Second War died down, the Alliance took aggressive steps to contain the orcish threat. A number of large internment camps, meant to house the captive orcs, were constructed in southern Lordaeron. Guarded by both the paladins and the veteran soldiers of the Alliance, the camps proved to be a great success. Through the captive orcs were tense and anxious to do battle once more, the various camp wardens, based at the old prison-fortress of Durnholde, kept the peace and maintained a strong semblance of order.

However, on the hellish world of Draenor, a new orcish army prepared to strike at the unsuspecting Alliance. The elder shaman, Ner'zhul - the former mentor of Gul'dan - rallied the handful of clans still left on Draenor under his dark banner. Ner'zhul planned to open a number of portals on Draenor that would lead the horde to new, unspoiled worlds. To power his new portals, Ner'zhul needed a number of enchanted artifacts from Azeroth. To procure them, Ner'zhul reopened the dark portal and sent his ravenous clans charging through it.

The new horde, led by veteran chieftains such as Grom Hellscream of the Warsong clan, and Kilrogg Deadeye of the Bleeding Hollow clan, surpriced the Alliance defence forces and rampaged through the countryside. Under Ner'zhul surgical command, the orcs quickly rounded up the artifacts that they needed and fled back to the safety of Draenor.

King Terenas of Lordaeron, convinced that the orcs were preparing a new invasion of Azeroth, assembled his most trusted lieutenants. He ordered General Turalyon and the mage, Khadgar, to lead an expedition through the dark portal to put an end to the orcish threat once and for all. Turalyon and Khadgar's forces marched into Draenor and repeatedly clashed with Ner'zhul's clans upon the ravaged Hellfire Peninsula. Though neither side gained ground, it was clear that Ner'zhul would not be stopped from completing his nefarious plans.

Ner'zhul succeeded in opening his portals to other worlds - but he did not foresee the terrible price he would pay. The portal's tremendous energies began to tear the very fabric of Draenor apart. As Turalyon's forces fought desperately to return home to Azeroth, the world of Draenor began to buckle in upon itself. Grom Hellscream and Killrogg Deadeye, realizing that Ner'zhul's mad plans would doom their entire race, rallied the remaining orcs and escaped back to the relative safety of Azeroth. As Hellscream and Deadeye hacked their way through the human ranks in a desperate bid for freedom, the dark portal suddenly exploded behind them. For them, and the remaining orcs on Azeroth, there would be no going back...

Ner'zhul and his Shadowmoon clan passed through their newly created portals, as massive volcanic eruptions began to break Draenor's continents apart. The burning seas rose up and roiled the shattered landscape as the tortured world was finally consumed in an apocalyptic explosion.

Day of the Dragon

Through Grom Hellscream and his Warsong clan managed to evade capture, Deadeye and his Bleeding Hollow clan were rounded up and placed in the internment camps in Lordaeron. Yet, despite the costly uprising, the camp's wardens soon re-established control over their brutish charges.

However, unknown to the Alliance's agents, a large force of orcs still roamed free in the northern wastes of Khaz Modan. The Dragonmaw clan, led by the infamous Warlock, Nekros, had maintained its control over the Dragonqueen, Alexstraza, and her Dragonflight by using an ancient artifact known as the Demon Soul. With the Dragonqueen as his hostage, Nekros built up a secret army within the abandoned dwarf stronghold of Grim Batol. Planning to unleash his forces and the mighty red dragons on the Alliance, Nekros hoped to reunite the horde and continue its conquest of Azeroth. Yet, a small group of resistance fighters, led by the human mage, Rhonin, managed to destroy the Demon Soul and free the Dragonqueen from Nekros command.

In the fury, Alexstrasza's dragons tore apart Grim Batol and incinerated the greater bulk of the Dragonmaw clan. Nekros grand schemes of reunification came crashing down as the Alliance troops rounded up the remaining orc survivors and threw them into the waiting interment camps. The Dragonmaw clan's defeat signaled the ed of the horde - and the end of the orcs furious bloodlust.

WarCraft III - Reign Of Chaos ( 4, 5, 6 ) (H)

HUMANS: THE ALLIANCE OF LORDAERON


Human History

( SINCE THE END OF THE SECOND WAR )




The Alliance Splinters

In the years following the horde's defeat, the leaders of the various Alliance nations began to bicker and argue over territorial holdings and decreasing political influence. King Terenas of Lordaeron, the patron of the Alliance, began to suspect that the fragile pact they had forged during their darkest hour would not stand for long. Terenas had convinced the Alliance Leaders to lend money and laborers to help rebuild the city of Stormwind that was destroyed during the orcish occupation of Azeroth. Those taxes, coupled with the high expenses of maintaining and operation the numerous orc internment camps, led many leaders - Genn Greymane of Gilneas in particular - to believe that their kingdoms would be better off seceding from the Alliance.

To make matters worse, the brusque high elves of Silvermoon rescinded their allegiance to the Alliance, stating that the humans's poor leadership led to the burning of their forest during the Second War. Though Terenas tactfully reminded the elves that nothing of Quel'Thalas would have remained if not for the hundreds of valiant humans who'd given their lives to defend it, the elves stubbornly decided to go their own way. In the wake of the elves departure, Golneas and Stromgarde pulled stake and seceded as well.

Though the Alliance was falling apart, King Terenas still had allies that he could count on. Both Admiral Proudmoore of Kul Tiras and the young king, Varian the Kirin Tor, led by the Archmage Antonidas, pledged Dalaran's steadfast support to Terenas's rule. Most pleasingly, perhaps, was the pledge of the mighty dwarwen king, Magni Brozebeard, who vowed that the dwarves of Ironforge would forever owe a debt of honor to the Alliance for liberating Khaz Modan from the horde's control.





A New Generation

Years passes as tensions abated and a lasting peace settled over Lordaeron. King Terenas and the Archbishop Alonsus Faol worked ceaselessly to rebuild the kingdom and bring aid to the remaining nations of the Alliance. The southern kingdom of Azeroth grew prosperous again and reestablished itself as a military power under King Wrynn's visionary leadership. Uther the Lightbringer, the supreme commander of the Paladin Order, kept the peace in Lordaeron by settling civil disputes and quelling demi-human uprisings throughout the realm. Admiral Proudmoore, whose mighty fleets patrolled the trade lanes hunting pirates and marauders, maintained order on the high seas. But it was the exploits of a newer generation of the heroes that captured the imagination of the populace.

King Terenas's only son, Arthas, had grown into a strong, confident young man. The young Prince was trained as a warrior by Muradin Bronzebeard - brother to King Magni of Ironforge - and despite his youth, was considered to be the one of the finest swordsmen in Lordaeron. At the tender age of nineteen Arthas was inducted into the Order of the Silver Hand under the command of King Terenas for years, considered the Prince more of a favored none could dispute Arthas bravery and tenacity. When the troll warbands of Zul'Aman began raiding the settlements along the Quel'Thalassian border, Arthas was quick to hunt down the savages and put an end to their rampage.

Yet despite his heroics, the citizenry of Lordaeron obsessed over the young Prince's personal life. Rumors of a budding romance between Arthas and Lady Jaina Proudmoore had surfaced and set the kingdom ablaze. Jaina wa the youngest daughter of Admiral Proudmoore, a childhood friend of Arthas. However, the beautiful, yet shy young women was also the star pupil of the Kirin Tor - the Wizard Council of Dalaran. Tutored by the revered Archmage, Antonidas, Jaina managed to maintain a close relationship. Given King Terenas's age and deteriorating health, the citizenry was pleased to see that their beloved Prince would marry and carry the royal Bloodline.

Embarrassed by the public attention, Arthas and Jaina kept their affair as private as possible. But Jaina, commited to her studies in Dalaran, knew that their romance could not last. She had studied the ways of magic her whole life and knew that her true calling was the pursuit of knowledge - not the trappings of the throne room. Much to the frustration Lordaeron's citizenry, the two lovers reluctantly parted ways and refocused themselves on their duties.




The Shadows Return

After nearly thirteen years of peace, the rumors of war began to circulate once again. The King's agents reported that a young, upstart warchief had arisen and rallied the few remaining orc clans into an elite fighting forces. The young warchief was intent on tearing down the interment camps and freeing his people from their bondage. The "new horde" as it was dubbed, had brazenly attacked the northern city of Stratholme in an attempt to rescue one of its captured warriors. The horde even destroyed Durnholde - the fortress that oversaw the security of the internment camps - and murdered the officers who ran it. King Terenas sent Uther and his paladins to quell the warchief's uprising, but the crafty orcs could never be f ound. The young warchief proved to be something of a tactical genius - and evaded Uther's best efforts to corral his hit and run attacks.

Amidst the strain of the new orc uprising, King Terenas was disturbed t hear ill news on another front. Rumor held that a number of supposed "death cults" had formed in the northern provinces. The cults attracted the disenfranchised and disheartened citizens of Lordaeron, offering them "eternal life" on earth as an alternative to servitude to the King. After many years of peace and quiet, King Terenas knew that troubles were only just beginning for his land. He took some comfort in the fact that Lordaeron had endured every trail that had ever come its way - and that its defenders, both new and old, would see it safely through to a new dawn...

Warcraft III - Reign Of Chaos ( 1, 2, 3 ) (H)

HUMANS: THE ALLIANCE OF LORDAERON

Human History

( SINCE THE END OF THE SECOND WAR )

Aftermath of the Second War

The devastating Second War against the orcish horde left the Alliance of Lordaeron in a state of shock and disarray. The bloodthirsty orcs, led by the mighty warchief, Orgrim Doomhammer, not only smashed their way through the dwarf-held lands of Khaz Modan, but had razed many of Lordaeron's central provinces as well The unrelenting orcs even succeeded in ravaging the elves remote kingdom of Quel'Thalas before their rampage was finally stopped. The Alliance armies led by Sir Anduin Lothar, Uther the Lightbringer, and Admiral Daelin Proudmoore pushed the orcs south into the shattered land of Azeroth - the first kingdom to fall before the orcs' ruthless onslaught.

The Alliance forces under Sir Lothar managed to push Doomhammer's clans out of Lordaeron and back into the orc-controlled lands of Azeroth. Lothar's forces surrounded the orcs' volcanic citadel of Blackrock Spire and laid siege to their defences. In a last-ditch effort, Doomhammer and his lieutenants staged a daring Burning Steppes. Doomhammer and Lothar squared off in a titanic battle that left succeeded in vanquishing Lothar, the great hero's death did not have the effect the warchief had hoped for.

Turalyon, Lothar's most trusted lieutenant, took up Lothar's bloodstained shield and rallied his grief-stricken brethren for a vicious counterattack. Under the ragged standards of both Lordaeron and Azeroth, Turalyon's troops slaughtered the bulk of Doomhammer's remaining forces in a glorious, but terrible rout. There was nothing left for the ragged, scattered orc survivors but to flee to the last standing bastion of orcish power - The Dark Portal.

Turalyon and his warriors chased the remaining orcs through the festering Swamp of Sorrows and into the corrupted Blasted Lands where the dark portal stood. There, at the foot of the colossal portal, the broken horde and the rugged Alliance clashed in what would be the last, bloodiest battle of the Second War. Outnumbered and driven mad by the curse of their blood-lust, the orcs inevitably fell before the wrath of the Alliance. Doomhammer was taken prisoner and escorted to Lordaeron while his broken clans were rounded up and hauled north - back to Lordaeron.

Beyond the Dark Portal

Only a few months after Nethergarde's completion, the energies of the dark portal coalesced and opened up a new gateway to Draenor. The remaining orc clans, under the leadership of the elder shaman, Ner'zhul, charged forth into Azeroth once again. intent on stealing a number of magical artifacts that would increase Ner'zhul's power, the orcs planned to open up new portals in Draenor that would allow them to escape their doomed red world forever.

Convinced that Ner'zhul was planning a new offensive against the Alliance, King Terenas of Lordaeron sent his armies into Draenor to end the orcih threat once and for all. Led by Khadgar and General Turalyon, the Alliance forces clashed with the orcs across the burning landscape. Even with the aid of the elven Ranger Alleria, the dwarf Kurdran and the veteran soldier Danath, Khadgar was unable to prevent Ner'zhul from opening his portals to other worlds.

The tremendous magical storms caused by the portals' converging energies began to tear the ravaged world apart. Ner'zhul, followed only by his trusted servants, managed to escape through one of the portals as Khadgar fought desperately to return his comrades to Azeroth. Realizing that they would be trapped on the dying world, Khadgar and his companions selflessly decided to destroy the dark portal so that Azeroth would not be harmed by Draenor's violent destruction. By all accounts, the heroes were successful in destroying the portal and saving Azeroth - But whether or not they escaped the death throes of Draenor remains to be seen.

The Battle of Grim Batol

After the destruction of the second dark portal, the Alliance succeeded in rounding up the most of the renegade orc clans still left in Azeroth. The orc internment camps, built shortly after the Second War, were filled to capacity and guarded around the clock. Through the newly arrived Warsong clan had so far escaped the Alliance's wrath, there was only one group - the Dragonmaw clan - that was large enough and strong enough to upset the delicate peace that had settled over Lordaeron.

The Dragonmaw clan, led by the insidious warlock, Nekros, had conquered and held a great portion of northern Khaz Modan using dragons and small units of foot soldiers. Nekros maintained his hold over the Dragonqueen, Alexstrasza, and her red dragonflight by use if a powerful artifact known as the Demon Soul. Based in the ancient dwarwen strongholdof Grim Batol, Nekros built up a sizeable army and planned to reunite the failing horde. But, despite the warlock's power, the intervention of the reckless mage, Rhonin, threw Nekros' plans awry. Rhonin and his companions, aided by dwarven resistance fighters, succeede in destroying the Demon Soul and freeing Alexstrasza from the orc's control. The vengeful red dragons incinerated the Dragonmaw clan and effectively put an end to the last bastion of the orcish power in the world.

With the death of Nekros, the last of the orcish warlocks - the orcs left to wallow in the crowded internment camps - slipped into a crippling lethargy. Stripped of their will to fight or even die, the orcs lost all sense of themselves as warriors - and the last traces of the proud culture that had birthed them.

Lets Stop The Pendulum - 21/08/08 - Diary

Lets Stop The Pendulum - Diary - 21/08/08

Oh yesh~ continue from the previous blog "20/08/08 Latihan Wirajaya - But things were not the way I wanted it to be..."

"But things were not the way I wanted it to be..." Well, after handing over our equipment back to the camp, went back to our dome, and called dear dear (EX), dear was in the train going to Midvalley with dear's daughters and his kai ma... But heard that dear's voice like very unhappy got things disturbing dear...? Don't know no idea, must be I am the one who is thinking too much... Chat and chat, blah blah blah blah...

Alright got to go already time to say bye bye to dear dear... Normally before hanging up we will normally give each other a kiss, "MUACKS" but dear didn't give me that kiss and just close it... There's a weird feeling inside my heart and explain what is that feeling... I was extremely tired and all I think is that maybe it's that I am too exhausted so I just calm myself by not thinking too much about this matter... Trust dear dear, trust dear dear... Everything will be normal and OK like always...

Called dear dear at evening again to check up on him... Sounds OK already, and I told myself "see Chris everything fine and OK, you were thinking too much only so as putting more pressure on your self"... Felt relieve...

At 7 something called dear dear once again too check on dear dear if he has reached home already or not, well he was on the way home... But his friend's mom is fetching them from MV due to the over pack crowd at the train station... Ok got a little EMO because dear haven't reach home and it's already dinner time and spend almost whole day out already... Well get over it Chris...

At 8.35 p.m, things changed in a way that I didn't expected... Dear suggest that we end this relationship, he says his tired to continue this relationship already... Dear wants to end this now... I beg for a chance to fix things up, but dear doesn't want anymore... I have no choice but to respect his decision and his courage... Although I feel very sad about it, I cried after I hang up the phone... And all the memories of times that we were together emerge and penetrating my mind, heart is beating and bleeding...

100th Days

Well today is the 100Th day that my uncle passed away, sadly my father has to pray him and force us to pray also... He passed away on 09/06/08 5 days before I went to NS, attended his funeral on 10/06/08, saw all my uncle aunt cried, saw all my uncle's wife side of the family cried, and I was just standing there with out any feelings or shed a single drop of tears watching them cry cry cry...

Well, I don't feel sad because he was dead even though he is my relative, I won't cry for death dude, I'll cry for love... Losing the one I love is the most painful thing, meaning of losing here is not death I am referring... Well dad, when praying I can see that you were shedding tears, oh gosh get over it dude, his been gone for 100 days already, crying won't bring him back either... Since his face was in peace during the last session that we saw him, why not let him go in peace... Rather then let his spirit see you all crying over his death and make his miserable...

Well to all dear relative, GET OVER IT... Life is short, Live it to the MAX... Enjoy Guys... !!!

Majlis Perasmian - PLKN 01/07/08

01/07/08 Today is Majlis Perasmian Program Latihan Khimat Negara, and It's also the day I got my Ranking... Haha, today woke up at 0600 a.m, well started like a normal day as any other day, It's been 2 weeks already that we have been in this camp, time is so slow...!!! Well, today we all have to wear our Full Celoreng, oh god it's going to be freaking hot damn...!!! Really can't stop cursing when have to wear this Set of uniform... Woke up at 0600 a.m, have to gather at he field for morning exercise - PT , Physical Training... Every morning the first thing is to sing the national anthem and raise the national flag and not forgetting our Lagu Khimat Negara... After that, listen to instruction from our Dear fat ass KJ - Ketua Jurulatih on what to do for today Physical Training... Skip this part sucks, do all the hell torture exercise in the morning where the sun is not up yet and sleepy mood at least wait for the sun rise la Dei... Haiz, really torturing during the days there, want to sleep also can't... As usual, PT until 7.30 a.m and lined up listen to the next orders and go back to the hall to have our breakfast, and at 8.30 a.m sharp we all have to be in the hall wearing our Full Celoreng. Finished our breakfast went back to our dome to get ready...

Well, slowly delay wasting time, with a slow touch here and there, and still can chat with friends to... This is what we always do, and get late as usual so as kena bombing by KJ for being late to assemble in the Hall... Reached there arranged our chairs according to our own platoon, but the ones that are gonna be promoted as Leaders have to sit in front of the Platoon... Starting of the Majlis Perasmian PLKN is by all standing up and sing the national anthem dan Lagu PLKN... Also bacaan Ikrar and doa... Sit back down and listen to our so called GOD FATHER - Kem Kommander talking his craps, he was happily talking about how great and good of this program how lucky that we are been selected to follow this program... "of course la, this is his rice bowl wor, without this program dunno where will he be..." Stupid guy =.="... And so on and on, finally he finished his holy craps, here goes Majlis seterusnya is penaik pangkat kepada ketua-ketua yang dipilih oleh jurulatih platun... Have to salute and this that, shake hands blah blah blah stand in front of the stage and done, only Ketua platoon still need to stand there while assistance can go back to their seats yahoo~^^... The Surrendering of our platoon Flags to every each Platoon by Trainers of Platoon, watch and enjoy the drama =.="...

After that, All Platoon leaders have to stand up and in front of own platoon to Salute t00 all our "anak buah" Hahahaha... Fun Fun~ :) after dismiss... Just nice ended at 11.30 a.m and all sit in the hall to wait for lunch time, during that hour, what so many people come and congrats us that have ranking ones... But, things won't be that smooth for me I guess wearing this Thing on my shoulder I feel that my shoulders are twice as heavy... Pressure and Responsibility...

At night, after dismissing all the other trainees back to their domes, leaders are to stay back in the hall for a meeting with TKL - Timbalan Kommander Latihan, on what is our duty to carry on... So as introduce our self to the other platoon leaders, Starting from ALPHA, BRAVO, CHARLIE, and DELTA... Meeting carried on till late 1.30 a.m and tomorrow have to wake up at 5.30 a.m damn sucks... Our meeting is classified as top secret meeting, because our job is the Hands, Ears, and Eyes in the camp - CCTV, monitoring the trainees behaviours and report more like SPIES among our friends... He told us we are under Pihak Pengurusan, anything we have to report to them using INTEL WAY so as our Special Rights, what can we do... Proud To be A leader ^^... Had Fun anyway...

20/08/08 - Latihan Wirajaya

Search And Rescue

Oh God, today is the day Latihan Kembara Wirajaya... Jeezs have to carry that freaking heavy camping bag... Woke up at 0500 a.m in the morning when the Muslims go for their morning prayers, we non-Muslims woke up at that time to get ready and re-check all our gadgets, our food and water supply... at 0630 a.m all gather at the hall to put bags there after that go down to the field there to raise the national flag and sing the national anthem, and here comes our god father to give a long and stinky speech to merasmikan Latihan Kembara Wirajaya, God let us sit down while you talk la, early in the morning where the sun haven rise yet all sleepy mood make us stand there and listen to the craps at the field, DAMN... After finishing his holy craps, we are to dismiss to return back to the hall for our breakfast, here goes another briefing from our Dear TKL - Timbalan Kommanden Latihan, Old dudes do talk a lot of craps, took a chair each and sit in our own platoon and listen to the instructions during jungle trekking what to do and not to... 08.45 a.m finally all lined up outside the hall to take Strength - Total number of people, Platoon leader count the Strength of their own platoon and report to KJ - Ketua Jurulatih in charge... First platoon to go and die first is Charlie and Delta, congratulations to them anything happens they will be the first to get it haha, let wild boar attack or chase also them first... Second to depart is the girls, jeez they will be causing trouble, thirdly is Alpha and Bravo... Bravo is behind Alpha, haha the last platoon to move so sad... Before entering the jungle, trainer will line us up again to take our strength in case of any MIA - Missing In Actions... From 1 to 34 people and my platoon trainer say Ketua Platoon is at the back of the platoon, I was cursing in my heart saying, "Damn you Bitch why all the one Ketua have to walk behind of the Platoon..." All lined up in a Straight line and I am at the end of the line, Great job... Walk through Bukit Ridan and to our Camping Side - Base... In the jungle, nothing special to see, just huge size ants and bugs ewww... And all the noise we create, no peace in the jungle at all... Saying of trouble, we rest more then we walk, Special Thanks to the Wirawati - Girls, keep stopping and resting, walk a while aiyo tired already this that all those junk... Can't cut or bypass them because we are not allow to cut lines and stupidly have to follow the ninja turtles... While walking I brought along my liquid paper, marked and draw the trees in the jungle... While reaching a slope, I'll write "Kawasan Kemalangan, Kurangkan Laju, Hargai Nyawa Anda, Kurangkan Laju Anda Boleh Mengubahnya, -> Hotel Pangkalan KPP 3.5 KM, Dilarang potong memotong or Ikut kiri kalau tidak memotong" For our dear Platoon Bravo friends to know what is in front... We really did all those writings and too bad no camera to take a photo =.="...

Finally at 13.30 p.m reached our pit stop, where is in a old quarry side... Legs were tired, and there was TKL waiting for us there with other trainers, and assemble all the ketua platoons to give briefing on what is next... Alright received our new orders already, time to move out, to take our men to the so called - BASE... Well after reaching the base, my platoon trainer gave me orders to order my comrades to start building up tents for the night and also there's a certain location for every each platoon, where is ALPHA BRAVO CHARLIE and DELTA... Haha for me very easy only, I just stand there giving out orders and commands, my tent also no need me to build up myself I can order my comrades to do the job, made a Big tent where can fit in 8 people haha, good job to my friend that build the tent, and also called the big guys to dig a hole to make a fire pit for the freezing night... After digging I summoned 9 people plus me is 10, 5 to find fire woods for the night and 5 more to find bricks or stone to surround the fire pit... Later on had lunch haha... Wanted to rest oh gosh here comes things to do, activities time... OMG...

Received my mission and I have to lead - Search And Rescue Mission... And later on is

Find The Golden Coconut... Using a map and a Compass, but I am not the one who is holding it because I don't know how to use it, let the pros to do it... I just stand and give orders that's all become very bossy =.="... Search and rescue include how to do first aid all those things bla bla bla... Finished my mission in time of course... Platoon A and B Team 1, Platoon C and D Team 2... We reached first and later them... Next activities is Search for the Golden Coconut, Not my business already, that mission I hand it over to my Ketua Platoon, the 3 Balak - 3 Line... I need Rest!!! argh... Haven't rest for the whole day, after hiking then reach base have to do this that, whoa I am not a machine leh... And tonight bet we won't get to sleep at all... Sucks... Mosquito are like bombars flying here and there and look at the size of them, oh god...

I didn't get to sleep well the whole night... with the fire we didn't feel that cold, but at midnight when most of my friends were asleep, I was awake because I cannot sleep... Became guard for the night with a friend beside me, when I stood up, whao I can see Platoon Bravo and Delta don't have a single light - Camp Fire it's pitch dark... cool...!!!

Well, Stayed up whole night chatting with a friend beside the fire and also adding woods to keep the fire up... Well time passes quite fast, well can see the sunrise and the morning beautiful sunlight, friends started to wake up one by one haha... Some still sleep until refuse to wake up, Started to pack and we cook our breakfast... Cleaned all the waste that we created and line up in lines to go gather at the Field for Closing of the Latihan Wirajaya listen to craps again from God Father... Surrender all our bags back to the camp and go back to our dome to rest for the day... Had fun... But things were not the way I wanted it to be...

I am a Weakling - 我是脆弱的

26/08/08 - Diary - 5 days after we broke up...

All the while I though I was very strong... But in fact I am only nothing but a Weakling and a Coward boy... I am weak I cannot accept what is happening and stand up once again after fall, I am Coward because I don't have the courage to accept the reality when you left me... I used all my hearts and souls to love you, try my best to take care of you, try my best not to hurt you as much as possible... Tried my best to give you all my love and happiness that I can afford too... I know, you never requested anything from me, you are afraid that you will trouble me... But now, loving long enough and those feelings we built up together is nothing but for a few hours of one short love...

I wear a mask in front of my friends, and this mask I wear fooled and bluffed all of them, pretending that I have once stand up again and walk on... Everyone though I was already cured and accepted what has happen... But every night, when the flashes of memories with you and me passes through my mind, as I think and think, my tears began to flow down my cheeks and I began to tell myself, bluffing myself, you and me are still together... You will love me forever, how could you just leave me and move on just like that...? More tears began to dash down my cheeks...

But no matter how, I have to accept the reality and move on, I really want to carefully kiss you a hundred times with all my heart and soul, if that is you allowed me... Dear, my tears are flowing down my cheeks, dropping on the floor and at last evaporate... Bit by bit those tears are a sign of a broken heart that burst into a million pieces...




8月26日08年 - 日记 - 分手后的第五天...

一直以来我都是脆弱的男人, 我用尽心力和灵魂的去爱护你... 给了你我所能给的幸福... 而你从来没有和我提过任何要求, 你害怕会给我添麻烦... 可现在, 我们两个所建立的爱情和感情都敌不过几小时短短的爱...

我欺骗了所有的朋友, 所有我所认识的人, 关心我的人, 扮坚强没事... 大家都以为我没事了, 已经能重新站起来面对... 每晚 ,我一想起你和我之间的无数回忆, 我想着想着就哭了, 我欺骗自己, 你和我还在一起, 你永远是爱我的, 你怎么可能忍心离开我呢...?

可是我必须面对现实, 我很想在你的脸上小心的留下几百个吻, 如果可以的话... 亲爱的, 我的泪一滴一滴的落在地上, 慢慢化开... 一滴一滴的落在了我碎掉的心上....

Fuck Off...!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS FREAKING WRONG WITH TODAY??? SUDDENLY THIS AND THAT, OFFLINE A FEW HOURS KENA SCOLD BY PEOPLE AGAIN... FUCKING PISSED, SMALL MATTER ALSO BECOME LIKE THIS SCOLD ME LIKE IT'S DAMN BIG... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHAT IS GOING WRONG!!! IT LOOKS LIKE ITS TIME TO CHANGE... I HAVE LOST MY PATIENCE OF BEING GOOD AND NICE... BLOG GOT EDITED, AND ONLY A FEW KNOWS MY PASSWORD... WHAT IS THAT OR NOT ITS ALL FUCKING FAKE AND UNFAIR FOR BEING SCOLD UNTIL LIKE THIS... WHO THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU ALL ARE... IF YOU WANNA FACE ME FACE ME LIKE A MAN, NOT LIKE A CHICK U MOTHER FUCKER SON OF A BITCH...


FROM NOW ON, THOSE WHO WANTS TO BE MY FRIEND JUST BE, THOSE THAT DOESN'T WANTS GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY, YOU'RE NOT WELL COME AT ALL... I DON'T EVEN MIND AT ALL... SERIOULY!!!

Moving The Pendulum…

Well, 3 months is not that long after all… Time really flies day by day, 3 months time in the camp is almost up already… All the experience will turn to memories for the rest of my life and all those who I met with in the camp… At camp there are happy moment and there is also sad moments and even unhappy things happening or happened… Sunday I’ll be returning to the camp, KPP – Kem Pinggiran Pelangi, after that I’ll be coming back on the Wednesday August 13th 2008, the Chinese 7th month of the Lunar calender – Hungry Ghost Month… 3 days holiday will be given to all chinese trainees and the trainees can decide to go home or stay at camp with the Muslims, after that when I come back I’ll be staying till August 18th – Monday… After the holidays, when we return to camp, 3 weeks remaining for us to have fun in the camp, after 3 weeks there’s no where on earth we can find this kind of experience again, not in my life time already… At day one in camp of course it sucks to the max, although nothing special happen to me, but fell ill and force to discharge from camp for MC… Day one, day two, day three in camp seems so long to reach 84 days – after training / after National service… but now come to think back time really flies there and time has never stopped once in my life time… At camp suffered a lot of course, but all this experience will soon turn to nothing but memories… Met a few stats of teens and soon became friends, comrades… Battle and play all activities together… Not bad, I have a rank in company / platoon – ALPHA, 2nd commander in charge, use to be 3rd, lucky the ex 2nd commander got fired, so from 3rd I became 2nd commander in charge… Not bad, can control 55 platoon members, including girls, 42 boys and 13 girls… Meet up with other Platoon leaders and Assist Scot, Bravo, Charlie, and Delta… Been given many kinds of tittle or names in the camp from friends, the names are :
- Pang Pang (Stupid Guy that call me This)
- Chinese Glory (Read in Cantonise)
- Mohammad Pang (The Muslims Girls Change It For me)
- Mohammad Pang Bin Abdullah (Second Level =.=”)
- Two Stick (Read In Cantonise)
- Leader Of Alpha (Read In Cantonise)

Still got some other names I forgot already, but in camp it’s kinda fun too, the only thing sucks is that we can’t have our phone on weekdays but only can have our phone during weekends… In camp missed the one I loved a lot, well things goes up and down, that is called life… Well have to write more of my experience while I can, because time in the camp is running out, and I don’t want this experiece to be forgotten, I want this memories to go on with me as long as I live through out the Glory days… So, when this Sunday I return to camp, I’ll record all in my mind and when I return home, I’ll try to write as many things as possible… So that when other time I read back my diary I can still have the feelings and experience through my memories and not forgotten…








The Pendulum Is Swinging, Once Stoped, It’s All Over…

07-08-08
22.30 p.m.

End Of Time... 06/09/08

84 days I spend in National service... From 14/06/08 - 06/09/08, days at there were fun I admit it even though I hated it from the day I check through website and got to know I was chosen for PLKN cursed every single cabinet that approve this F**K program to over come the so called "LEPAK Tradition" among the teens in Malaysia after their form 5 SPM... Day 1, day 2, day 3 and so on from starting at the camp, time was slow till I can hardly think of inventing a Nuclear and set it off in the Parliament hall to kill every single Idiot that support this freaking program... Day dream comes to killing and ways or torturing those idiots trainers that I hate the most... Bored until covered by Illusions, how sad eh...? But 84 days at the camp there though us a lot, can't really use the word "us" because I notice that not all of the Teens in the camp there learn what I've learn and understand it... Should use more on "me". I've learn how to be independent now after I got back from NS, I also learn what is called hard times and team work, at there and not forgetting "CHALLENGES", I've tested myself to tolerate with others including the people that I hate... Well to me, it was hard because of what I am... I mean, I hold a Rank so my responsibility is much more heavy then other friends... I've got brothers that took care of each other during hard times, but as days passes by, I started to feel that time with them are not enough and it's flying pass faster and faster... Maybe the 1st or 2nd week I don't notice it... But when you see the calender and the month you're in, you will feel it... During the last day, before our departure from camp to go back where we belong, many of us cried including me, shake hands and hug for the last time, because we don't even know whether will we meet again in the up coming future, all from different states and distance are far... On that day we have songs in different parts haha... Starting from morning the song we played was (Gundam Seed - Morning) nice song... When we started to get ready and take our bags down to the hall, one of my friend open this music from his Walkman phone. And when we recieved an announcenment from the office saying that "Perhatian kepada Wira dan Wirawati yang akan bertolak ke Terengganu, KL, dan Johor Bharu sila turun ke padang kawat sekarang..." and we know that time's up already, it's time to say good bye... Lined up at padang kawat, and that time is where we say good bye hugged each other shake hands smile at each other in he face... Same friend open (Gundam Seed Destiny - Fields Of Hope), another sad song... But it has a meaning in it ^^v... And then it's really time for good bye... we were ordered to board the buses that are lining up there, with this song running our tears started to fall... We sat in the bus and waited for the trainers to take our strength (how many people), my friend same bus with me, can hear that sad music makes me sad also... After when everything is done, we can see the bus doors slowly close, one by one... Next was (Gundam Seed Destiny - kimi wa Boku no niteiru) when the bus started to... Didn't I had a friend that likes Gundam Seed also =.=" anime freak haha... But I agree on all this songs because it suits the situation and the emotion that we are into... Our bus was the first to depart, we can see all the other friends at the other bus gather at the side of the bus window and salute at us... we also Salute back for the last time... Hormat Ke Depan Hormat!!! And there goes us leaving the camp and looking back and those flashes of memories and times that we spend here... All shall be memories and experience for the rest of our life...

Waiting - 等待

25/08/08 - Diary
During late and a quite night, things to think are specially getting more and more. Standing outside my dome with no tiredness through out the rough days, staring at the streets lights and the shadows created by the lights, felt that myself is very lonely, street lights have their shadows to accompany them through out the whole night,what about me...? Accompanying me besides loneliness still got who else...? You left me and just go on like that, didn't know how much pain I am in...? You don't know how it feels for that bitter and sore pain deep in my heart...

Didn't you said that you will love me for the rest of your life... Eternal love...? All this promises where did it went already...? Did you forget about it crystal clear not even a clue...? Two more weeks from the date 21/08/08 I'll be out of National Service already... After my realease of National Service you said you will be together with me and enjoy every Birthdays, Festive Seasons and each day passes... But now you have left me already...

If you leave me is just to test our relationship and our love towards each other, I feel that it's already reached the limit already right...? Don't you want to return to me...? You don't want me already...? Each night I felt like crying out loud, but I cannot cry out because my friends don't want to see me sad, I cannot cry out freely but at late night looking at the clear bright skies and cry when I think about the memories we made... It's been the 4th night I didn't sleep well...

The days with out you is very hard and torturing to pass. Everyday in the dome I think of our time that we use to be together, my tears will flow down my cheeks. I miss the days that I hug you, miss the days you call me dumb dumb, missed the days that we use to whisper in my small little room and laugh. I missed everything that you gave me... But all those have become a past and a memory...

I don't know will you be reading this blog that I typed, But I just want to let you know... I treasured everything that you gave me, I'll wait till time comes or time goes to heal me... or you to return...


8月25日08年 - 日记
夜深人静的时候, 想的东西也特别多. 站在外面看着被街灯拉长的人影, 突然觉得自己好孤独, 街灯还有影子的陪伴, 而我呢? 陪伴我的除了孤单还有谁? 说走就走的你, 难道都不曾想过我的感受吗? 你知道我的痛苦吗? 你知道那个滋味是很难受的吗?

不是说要爱我一辈子, 疼我一生的吗? 这些承若去了哪里? 你都忘记了吗? 还有两个星期是我出营的日子. 出去了后你说过要陪我度过每一个生日, 情人节, 圣诞节, 和每一个日子... 现在你却已经离开我了.

如果你的离去只是想考验我们之间的感情,些那么都过了这么久, 我想已经是极限了... 难道你永远都不回来了吗? 不要和我在一起了吗? 每晚我在静悄悄的哭... 不想给我的朋友们担心我... 所以我扮坚强...

没有你和我的日子是很难熬的... 每晚在我的房间里想着我们相处的时光我就会湿红了眼. 我好怀念你在我怀里撒侨的日子, 好怀念你叫我傻瓜, 好怀念我们在小房里说悄悄笑话. 我好怀念你的一切. 那一切现在只成了我的回忆...

不管你有没有看到这篇文章, 我都希望让你知道, 我会让时间复原一切伤痛... 或你的回归...

Bahasa Perintah - Commanding Orders

Berjalan Masuk Padang

1. Skuad Sedia
2. Bergerak ke kiri/kanan bertiga-tiga ke kiri/kanan pusing
3. Dari kiri/kanan cepat jalan
4. Kanan/ kiri belok
5. Skuad ...... Henti
6. Skuad akan menghadap kehadapan ke kiri/kanan pusing
7. Buka Barisan ....... Gerak!
8. Ke kanan Lurus
9. Pandang Depan

Melapor - All Must Be Quite Or Else... Pay The Price... During Reporting...

Kawad Statik

1. Tutup Barisan...... Gerak!
2. Ke kanan lurus
3. Pandang Depan
4. Senang diri
5. Rehatkan diri
6. Skuad!!! ...... Skuad Sedia
7. Bergerak ke kanan bertiga-tiga ke kanan pusing
8. Bergerak ke kiri bertiga-tiga ke belakang pusing
9. Skuad akan menghadap kebelakang ke kiri pusing
10. Skuad akan menghadap kehadapan ke belakang pusing
11. Hormat, hormat ke hadapan ...... Hormat!!!

Bergerak

1. Bergerak ke kanan bertiga-tiga ke kanan pusing
2. Dari Kiri cepat Jalan
3. Hormat kehadapan ...... Hormat!!!
4. Bergerak ke kanan bertiga-tiga ke belakang pusing
5. Tukar Langkah masa berjalan ...... Tukar Langkah (x3)
6. Bergerak ke kiri bertiga-tiga ke belakang pusing - (Check In Kiri Kanan kiri, Maju)
7. Skuad ...... Henti
8. Skuad akan menghadap kehadapan ke kanan/kiri pusing
9. Ke kanan lurus
10. Pandang hadapan

Mara Menghadap

1. Skuad akan mara menghadap, dari kanan cepat jalan (Kiraan 14 langkah 1,2... Henti)
2. Hormat, ke hadapan ...... Hormat!!!

Berjalan Keluar Padang

1. Skuad akan berjalan keluar, bergerak ke kiri/kanan bertiga-tiga ke kanan/kiri pusing
2. Dari kiri/kanan cepat jalan
3. Kiri/kanan Belok

All this are the command to give during Marching... have to shout damn loud... Not easy being a leader, and it's challenging...

Birthday

29/08/08 - Diary
Hmmm, what day is today...? Looks like a normal Friday, oh yeah today... Today is Hari Ambang Merdeka and also Penghayatan Sastera dan Budaya day, D-Day...!!! And it's also someone's birthday, someone special in this camp - Mejar Hamzah Bin Hussien, my Commander!!! Celebrated his birthday in the mid morning and during night, having BBQ, but more like just normal dinner, we didn't enjoy at all, the BBQ is like every Platoon volunteer 5 people and only this selected 5 will do the cooking the rest should not interfear. At 7.30 p.m sharp, every chinese boys have to report for duty in the hall to arrange and prepare the food for each and every members in he Platoon. So when the muslims go for their prayers we chinese do and prepare the food, sucks,, everyone can have only 1 meat that is beef, chicken and mutton. Haha we chinese of course choos the big meat and leave small or medium size for the muslims - so evil... So many preformance, bored of it, some more I have to gear up my Armor - Full Celoreng = Freaking Hot~!!! Platoon Leaders that didn't take part in any of Sastera dan Budaya preformance have to gear up in their full set EQ Armor, for the class preformance. Hate to wear full celoreng, it's damn thick and hot, well for the class preformance, my class got place 4, not bad... All ended at almost 12.30 a.m, teachers began to give back our phones. Give back haven reached 1 hour a friend of mine from company Bravo lost his phone already, and all Platoon Bravo members have to gather down at the Hall for emergency meeting. According to them, they say that my friend didn't take the phone but when he wanted to take it from teacher , the phone was not in the box. Maybe someone accidently took it or on purpose. Well tomorrow is going to be a torturing day for us, he teachers will surely think of a way to torture us indeed.

When You Left Me...

6/09/08 - Diary
I always though for a happy ending between our relationship, I always believed that we will be together till the end of life. When you left me, I count the steps days that passes by, and the days feel like years when I am alone. The bed where you lie is made up on your side. I believe you can't see or feel how much I miss you right now... When you left me, the pieces of my heart are missing till now, when you're gone, the memories of you and me will always be with me, the words I always need to hear to get me through the day to make me OK is silent already. I miss you, everything that I do and say, reminds me of you and me. When I came home, the things that you gave me mean so much to me, the bed where you lie beside me still smells just like you slept here overnight, I loved all the things that you do. All I ever wanted was for you to know, everything I do I say I give my heart and soul, I cried hardly each night, I need to feel you here with me. It's nice to know we had it all, thanks for watching as I fall... I miss you... Bye^^...

Rainbow

28/08/08 - Diary
Kem Pinggiran Pelangi or short form "KPP", I've read one trainee's online blog, she said that "Don't bother on searching for a rainbow, because when I was here the whole 3 months training, I've not seen one rainbow across the sky of KPP". Well, I saw the Rainbow yesterday at 6.15 p.m. A full rainbow across the skies of "KPP", it was beautiful and I have a feeling that things will turn out to be OK for me, and I hope for it, been badly hurt... But sadly, I have to stand there and see it on my own, I though of seeing this rainbow together with my lover, but too bad, I am single already. Guess that I have to spend this up coming Festivals alone for the 18th year in my life, hope next year I wont be alone... Things have changed as what I said, but hope that this changes will be good and benefit everyone. If I have only one wish, I wish I can have a boyfriend that last till the end with me to view the beautiful shinning bright stars hanging on the clear beautiful night sky, meteor shower, forever our love will go on... But to tell you a secret, I made a wish when I saw that rainbow across the skies of KPP... "Your Happiness".