25/08/08 - Diary
During late and a quite night, things to think are specially getting more and more. Standing outside my dome with no tiredness through out the rough days, staring at the streets lights and the shadows created by the lights, felt that myself is very lonely, street lights have their shadows to accompany them through out the whole night,what about me...? Accompanying me besides loneliness still got who else...? You left me and just go on like that, didn't know how much pain I am in...? You don't know how it feels for that bitter and sore pain deep in my heart...
Didn't you said that you will love me for the rest of your life... Eternal love...? All this promises where did it went already...? Did you forget about it crystal clear not even a clue...? Two more weeks from the date 21/08/08 I'll be out of National Service already... After my realease of National Service you said you will be together with me and enjoy every Birthdays, Festive Seasons and each day passes... But now you have left me already...
If you leave me is just to test our relationship and our love towards each other, I feel that it's already reached the limit already right...? Don't you want to return to me...? You don't want me already...? Each night I felt like crying out loud, but I cannot cry out because my friends don't want to see me sad, I cannot cry out freely but at late night looking at the clear bright skies and cry when I think about the memories we made... It's been the 4th night I didn't sleep well...
The days with out you is very hard and torturing to pass. Everyday in the dome I think of our time that we use to be together, my tears will flow down my cheeks. I miss the days that I hug you, miss the days you call me dumb dumb, missed the days that we use to whisper in my small little room and laugh. I missed everything that you gave me... But all those have become a past and a memory...
I don't know will you be reading this blog that I typed, But I just want to let you know... I treasured everything that you gave me, I'll wait till time comes or time goes to heal me... or you to return...
8月25日08年 - 日记
夜深人静的时候, 想的东西也特别多. 站在外面看着被街灯拉长的人影, 突然觉得自己好孤独, 街灯还有影子的陪伴, 而我呢? 陪伴我的除了孤单还有谁? 说走就走的你, 难道都不曾想过我的感受吗? 你知道我的痛苦吗? 你知道那个滋味是很难受的吗?
不是说要爱我一辈子, 疼我一生的吗? 这些承若去了哪里? 你都忘记了吗? 还有两个星期是我出营的日子. 出去了后你说过要陪我度过每一个生日, 情人节, 圣诞节, 和每一个日子... 现在你却已经离开我了.
如果你的离去只是想考验我们之间的感情,些那么都过了这么久, 我想已经是极限了... 难道你永远都不回来了吗? 不要和我在一起了吗? 每晚我在静悄悄的哭... 不想给我的朋友们担心我... 所以我扮坚强...
没有你和我的日子是很难熬的... 每晚在我的房间里想着我们相处的时光我就会湿红了眼. 我好怀念你在我怀里撒侨的日子, 好怀念你叫我傻瓜, 好怀念我们在小房里说悄悄笑话. 我好怀念你的一切. 那一切现在只成了我的回忆...
不管你有没有看到这篇文章, 我都希望让你知道, 我会让时间复原一切伤痛... 或你的回归...
